okay, well

and i skipped 5th-8th period and went down to the apple store to mooch off the laptops and shit and then after a while we ventured up to the second floor of the apple building where they have all the ipods and shit
so we start to fool around on the ipods, being stupid and shit and jizzing over how sexy the fucking headphones were
so yeah, then i get this idea to walk down memory lane and listen to some music that i don't listen to anymore
and lol the only band i had in mind was, my fucking chemical romance because i really liked them back in middle school (6th grade-9th grade)
so, i get on youtube on the iphone and looked up 'cancer', because back when i liked MCR, i thought this song was just one of the saddest songs i've ever heard
and i'm just there, listening to this shit
and crying on the fucking inside
:I
but, yeah, then later in the day i go to fucking Barnes & Nobles and sit down to read volume 2 of "the umbrella academy" which is named DALLAS (some shit about the assassination of president kennedy, eh)
I read this because I own the first volume (except i have it in issues)
and i see a fucking photo of gerard way and lyn z on the last page of the book, and the theme is the death of kennedy (which is gerard) with lyn z as the wife, whom witness bloody brain busting violence
and i was just like this :I because, ugh, it made me feel weird
like
WHAT IF I START TO LIKE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE AGAIN?
THIS IS BOTHERING ME